life as we know it.

There have been many changes taking place since I last posted an entry.  First of all, the house is getting forclosed within the next 60-90 days.  We can stay here as long as we pay rent every month, and as long as there's a legitamate reason as to why we cannot move (i.e. illness, injury).  We could definitely say that I just had knee surgery, therefore I'm unable to move.  So, we're going to TRY to stay here...if it's possible.  But, if we have to move out, I just pray to the Lord that we can find somewhere affordable to live.  Another thing, I've had this reoccuring dream that I go to seminary school and that I build my own church.  I honestly think it means something.  I've had this dream at least 4 or 5 times that I can remember.  I know it means something because I prayed to God that he'd show me a sign in my dreams what His purpose for me is.  I'll have to do some more soul-searching to be sure that it is God's will for me.

My knee is doing a lot better.  I can get around a lot easier, and physical therapy is getting more and more challenging each and every time I go.  I've been going to church more often, which has dramatically helped me mentally and spiritually.  I'm so desperately trying to keep my head up through all of this mess.  I know that God will help me get through this... after all, He has helped me out through EVERYTHING that I've been through; and I'm so grateful for Him.

I'm also REALLY excited about Christmas.  I just love this time of year!!  I hope all of my readers are doing well also.  Thanks for reading!

Take care and God bless,
Cassie

I will make it through the rain.

Hello everyone!  I just thought I'd update everyone on what's going on.  I recently had surgery on my left knee to get my ACL reconstructed:  it was completely torn.  That was exactly two weeks ago.  The recovery is the hardest part; the surgery was literally a breeze.  For further reading, visit my recovery blog here.  I go into deep detail about every single day of my recovery and physical therapy.  There's always new updates there.  I haven't really been keeping tabs on my other blogs, mainly because I've only been focused on recovering lately.  It's taken up ALL of my time.  Literally.

This week has been really rough for me, though.  I got my staples taken out a couple days ago, and I lost my job.  It really sucks.  I got "terminated" because I needed a 3 month medical leave, and I didn't qualify for one since I haven't worked there for 90 days.  I can always re-apply, but it still hurt my pride a little.  I had never been fired before, so it's difficult for me.  I'm getting through it, though.  I'm really trying on finding an online job so that I can still bring in some money.  I don't ever want to be poor again.  It teaches you SO much about the little things in life- really, it does.  But, in my opinion, once you get dirt poor, you make sure that you never get that way again, unless it isn't in your hands.

I realized something tonight while I was showering.  These past two weeks have been hard on me because I've been letting them be hard on me.  I have literally been sitting around moping because I can't do as much anymore.  I'm normally extremely independent and self-sufficient.  That's why it's been difficult for me to have to swallow my pride and ask everyone for help.  Help putting on clothes, showering, and just doing the simplest things.  All of these things I've always done on my own.  Don't get me wrong:  It's perfectly okay to ask for help, but I feel like I've reached everyone's limit.

I need to be brighter, and start thinking more positively.  I'm a realist; I see things how they are.  But too much realism can lead to pessimism.  And I do NOT want to be a pessimist.  I'm typically an optimist, but I've been getting "kicked while I was down".  I'll make it through the rain.  I always do, and always will.

Thanks for reading.  You can read my vegan blog here.  I write reviews on vegan beauty products, food, and much much more!

Take care and good night,
Cassie

writing.

I just had a big epiphany.  More than likely, I'll be out of work anywhere from 3 to 4 months, depending on the progress of my recovery.  If, for some reason, I am out of work that long, I'm gonna need to find a work-from-home job or something.  Just another way to bring in some bucks.  Well, I'm constantly blogging.  Wouldn't it be nice to get paid to blog?!  I know, right!  Best idea, ever.  That's gonna be a tough one, though.  Most companies want an experienced writer.  I, am not.  Of course, I've written massive tons of english papers when I was in school... but right now, I'm not in college; nor do I have the professional experience that most companies prefer.  I would love to get paid to write, though.  I've always enjoyed writing, and frankly, I've always been pretty good at it.  I have a way of being able to write from many different perspectives, which makes for good story-telling.  That's what I should do.  I should write a book.  And publish it.  If it's good enough, and it gets published... I could make a percentage of the sales that it receives.  If it's good enough.  See, that's my issue.  There are so many wonderful writers out there; some better than me, some worse.  Although, I realize that's typical no matter what stage of life you're in, or what career field you're in.  There will always be people who are better than you, and you'll always be better than certain people.  That's just how it is.  I guess I feel a little insecure about it, since I was never a HUGE writer in high school.  My cousin, on the other hand, always was, and still is.  She roleplays a lot.... which, to me, requires a huge amount of exceptional writing ability; mainly because you have to be extremely descriptive in roleplays.  I don't want to roleplay, necessarily.  I want to just write.  About everything and anything.  This is going to take some work.  Mental work.  I know I can do it, though.  I've been though so much stuff that it's made me mentally metallic-like.  So strong, like metal.  Okay, that was a little lame.  Well, I'm off to figure out my next writing assignment.  Whatever it may be.  Wish me luck, everyone and as always, thank you so much for reading!

Take care,
Cassie

ATTENTION READERS!

Everyone, I have a new update!!!  If y'all want to continue reading about my recovery, I'll be posting more on my wordpress blog, which is A Vegan's Eyes.  The main reason is, I don't feel like bouncing back and forth within three blogs, continuously writing the same thing over and over.  It's just getting too redundant for me.

Thanks everyone for reading!!!

Cassie

Day 5 Post-Op.

Alrighty, today is the fifth day post-op and overall, I feel good.  Tired, but good.  I literally spent most of the day today sleeping.  It probably has to do with the theory that your body heals itself while you sleep.  Nothing new has really changed, per se.  Everything's about the same.  Just thought I'd update everyone and let y'all know how I'm doing.  Sorry for the short post, but my eyes are getting tired of seeing words right now  XD.

Have a nice day!

Day 3 Post-Op.

 

Today is the third day after my knee surgery.   My knee is still pretty swollen, as you can see in the pictures, and it's been pretty painful today.  Thank the Lord for Percocet.  I've been doing lots of knee exercises, as the orthopedist recommended.  I'm supposed to do them for 30 minutes at a time, and I've been slowly working my way up.  This morning, I was only able to do 20 minutes of exercises, and this afternoon, I got up to 25 minutes.  I still am wearing the huge knee immobilizer, and constantly icing my knee, so it won't swell and scar badly.

I honestly haven't felt too good today.  I'm not sure why, I just haven't really felt like myself.  Blogging has actually helped me out tremendously.  I can connect with people who have gone through the same thing that I have.  I've also been able to get lots of underlying emotions off of my chest.

I called work this morning, and told them that I may be out of work for 3-4 months, depending on my recovery.  They said that as long as I have a doctor's note stating how long I'll be out of work.  I set up an appointment with my orthopedist this morning for next Tuesday at 9:10am.  That will probably be scheduling physical therapy and removal of my staples.

Otherwise, everything's going fine.  I'm just trying to take it a day at a time.  Each day gets better and better.  I know that my recovery will go just fine.  Thanks for reading!

It's over!

The day that I've been waiting a week for is finally over.  I had my ACL reconstructed yesterday afternoon at Lexington Hospital.  The surgery actually went really well, and I didn't wake up during it (I was really worried about that).  Today has been quite challenging for me, though.  I'm a very independent woman, and I'm used to doing things for myself, but I've had to have help with everything today.  I'm supposed to see my orthopaedist in 10-14 days for a follow-up visit.  Afterwords, he'll probably set me up with physical therapy, which I'm anxious and curious about.  Right now, they have me wearing a knee immobilizer all night and day.  The only time I'm allowed to take it off is twice a day for thirty minutes for my knee exercises.

I just want to thank everyone for their prayers and support!  It all means SO much to me!!  Thanks again!

Have a safe, happy Halloween!

Cassie